cant begin to describe how things are.
jooxiang kept the peace in class and now that he's gone the cracks are showing.
no jan, not bit by bit. we're falling apart in chunks...
your anger at the exclusive smug and cant be bothered. morphine, cocaine anything. give me something to dull the meshwork of prickly feelings that drain us so.
others get into cliques but we kinda of just disperse?
thats why i said there are reasons that compel me to stay, and to go.
but ella, its the same everywhere no matter the rafflesian or squarebook culture.
i felt so strange today during GP.
when we were answering the qns on the Bush admin, i kept wanting to qn the 'correctness' of the standard ans given, to point out that the writing is on the wall is a biblical allusion, metaphor of ominous future and foreshadowing and that it reminds me so much of the lit that i have sorely missed. choo's influence has taken deep roots in my processes of thought that i question so much abt so many.
and now the qn surfaced yet again in my mirror that my reflection asks me; just how much am i willing to sacrifice for it. and the truth is the answer always changes each time.
everything would have been so simple if we've taken our results today.
my bleeding is prolonged another 3 days, and i cant wait to get out of this place.
all those knives in my back may just prove too much for 2 years.
ive grown to loathe our daily inane meaningless small talk.
i know you, yet i dont. hello, stranger. where did you come from to stirred up six feet deep of murkiness for us?
and i was just thinking of the loooonnnng list of movies i wanna watch (past and present):
- Boys Dont Cry
- Goodfellas
- Fightclub
- Flashdance
- Casablanca
- cider house rules
- Dead Poets' Society
- Girl Interrupted
- i am sam
- Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
- Rabbit Proof Fence
- Hotel Rwanda
- Constantine ( subtitles please)
- Closer
- sideways
jooxiang kept the peace in class and now that he's gone the cracks are showing.
no jan, not bit by bit. we're falling apart in chunks...
your anger at the exclusive smug and cant be bothered. morphine, cocaine anything. give me something to dull the meshwork of prickly feelings that drain us so.
others get into cliques but we kinda of just disperse?
thats why i said there are reasons that compel me to stay, and to go.
but ella, its the same everywhere no matter the rafflesian or squarebook culture.
i felt so strange today during GP.
when we were answering the qns on the Bush admin, i kept wanting to qn the 'correctness' of the standard ans given, to point out that the writing is on the wall is a biblical allusion, metaphor of ominous future and foreshadowing and that it reminds me so much of the lit that i have sorely missed. choo's influence has taken deep roots in my processes of thought that i question so much abt so many.
and now the qn surfaced yet again in my mirror that my reflection asks me; just how much am i willing to sacrifice for it. and the truth is the answer always changes each time.
everything would have been so simple if we've taken our results today.
my bleeding is prolonged another 3 days, and i cant wait to get out of this place.
all those knives in my back may just prove too much for 2 years.
ive grown to loathe our daily inane meaningless small talk.
i know you, yet i dont. hello, stranger. where did you come from to stirred up six feet deep of murkiness for us?
and i was just thinking of the loooonnnng list of movies i wanna watch (past and present):
- Boys Dont Cry
- Goodfellas
- Fightclub
- Flashdance
- Casablanca
- cider house rules
- Dead Poets' Society
- Girl Interrupted
- i am sam
- Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
- Rabbit Proof Fence
- Hotel Rwanda
- Constantine ( subtitles please)
- Closer
- sideways
1 Comments:
At 10:20 PM,
Terence said…
I empathize..yeah..i guess what you say is true...it is like that everywhere..even my class is like that..like you..i'm in no clique too..i guess joo xiang must have been the key to your class dynamics..must have had that x-factor in him though i don't know him very well..cheer up...don't let this things bog you down...you have your good friends and me as a friend..as for the back stabbing..i've always stuck by a principle..and will continue to stick by it..that is to judge for myself and never backstab..if you're true to yourself and your friends..nothing else matters..social politics suck..everybody might be doing it..but it doesn't mean its good..brighten up..good luck for your "o"s i'm sure you'll do well..either way..i'll still be your friend..ciao
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